
Jam.
(A brief paragraph before anything)
After both have been so long absent, needed rewriting ... I can not stop myself more. I have to drop everything in me but of course I need to do in a place where you can write freely, without judge or criticize me for it, with no impact on those who suffer when I'm wrong ... that in the end My life is out of anyone else so what you do or not do is my problem. And this goes for the texts they write in tuenti but have temrinado, write it all here.
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meditating in his study, looking for an explanation of the love he did not know for sure why, but his life mostly revolves around the issue. Maybe it's because even though deep down prefer to be an independent girl and have very clear ideas need someone to complement. All part of that hole we all have within us that only some people get fully filled, the rest simply go picking 'bits' of ones and others to feel 'satisfied' but in reality it does is hurt yourself more ...
In so many disappointments that led, by saying to herself 'this time it' and then turned out to be no, for every time someone wanted and trusted him, those illusions that vanished day day to see how everyone was able to feel something that she was not able to feel .... afraid. That does not mean it's funky upside down, she has always fought for what I wanted and did not succeed until did not stop, and if he did not get it I took it as a lesson nested forward and feeling stronger every day and wanting to outdo itself above all else.
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this sounds repetitive, I will have such a -28457836783596 - times but I can not help .. this is the root of the problem which truly put much effort I am unable to solve anything now. Because every passing day my confidence grows, my insensitivity becomes stronger, the value of words vanishes ... I feel I am able to love as he did and if as they say: 'The heart is a muscle and ógarno stronger, more needs to be developed ' How do I feel that each beat is like a last breath, no strength, no desire, almost motivated by the obligation not stop because you have many things to do but mostly because they want to do suffer from yours?
Despite the redundancy of my words, the fear is real, not only paralyzed but also impossible to see the opportunities that we face every day. Fear enslaves us, making us prisoners preventing the life we \u200b\u200bwant for ourselves. Fear keeps us moving towards an extraordinary life we seek in our work, our relationships, and everything we are and do.
why I plan to reach 5 goals to eradicate of my life once and for all this problem once and can get what I want, those dreams and those goals that I want to achieve but do not let fear and even prevents me from myself ...
will march without fear .
(written by me)
"Your life expands in proportion to your courage" . John C. Maxwell
new in my life: the truth thankfully few (even though I complain a lot) my life is not monotonous and that constantly full of change, yet it bores me sometimes overwhelm me and it pisses me off for no apparent reason alone but there are always reasons why complain and do not agree with the world.
Here I leave a text and put it on my other sites but I love (L):
not things easier on the outside, it can fool you. not interest you by wealth, will vanish. Search someone you spreading the smile , because it only takes one so that the saddest day to become better. Find someone who makes you laugh your heart .
For better or worse but do found that someone does not help at all ...
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may be that my life is not intended nor prepared for these things and have to continue as before fooling myself because I can not say I care and love him in a special way .. because although our lives are totally different, parallel, our perspectives have very little in common and our worlds and realities do not have almost nothing to do I like it as it is matter what everyone thinks of him ...